04 JULY 2008
This is gonna be a hella quick update.
School has been keeping me off the internet for quite a while now. There's just tons of crap to do and I don't wanna get left behind. You know how hard it is to catch up on major subjects and time management issues and stuff. Every second is precious study time not to be wasted. Fuck no.
And I am going to start sounding even more geekier in the entries to come.
I feel very apprehensive about going on duty at the OPD department of my school's hospital. Out Patient Department = paper work, paper work, paper work. Really, I'd rather be at the frickin delivery or operating room observing stuff than interviewing people and doing paperwork. But then again, I tend to panic under situations in extremely sterile environments where everything has to go according to plan. Good luck to me.
About Carl's phone, he got a new one not so long after. Everything's going great. Despite extremely hectic schedules on Mondays - Wednesdays, we still get to see each other a lot. We're gonna be ten times busier next week till the semester ends. It's really sad, but we've got Thursdays - Saturdays AND, it's fricken July already, it'll be December tomorrow.
Alrightey. I really hope I get some time off real soon. Looks like you'll be staring at this layout for a long long while since I don't have the time to make a new one. Booo me.
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18 JUNE 2008
EDIT. Carl's cellphone got stolen today while he was on the bus home. I feel so bummed out because texting is the only way we communicate given that we live kinda far from each other and it would cost so much if we called each other up via landline. The internet (Yahoo Messenger) is another good option but we really don't have the time to go online most of the time. I'm glad he's okay and unharmed. We're just both bummed out cuz his phone holds so much sentimental value plus it was only what? Like, 5 months old? Sucks ass. I can't even think of one fucking punishment that those motherfucking lowlife cunts deserve :( I just miss reading Carl's text messages so much. And I miss him even more :( /EDIT
And this is where I start to realize that nursing really isn't that bad.
Learning about the specifics of body systems can be such a pain in the ass, let alone demonstrate how they are assessed, but surprisingly (and geekily) enough, I actually liked it. And it's kinda scary cuz whenever I get so stressed out, I tend to panic and suffer from severe apraxia. But this time I didn't, I actually enjoyed it.
I guess this is what they say about feeling confident about yourself and what you're doing, and having a great time even in instances where you feel pressured and stressed out. Bottom line, all it takes is confidence. And presence of mind. And a bucket full of happy thoughts. Now I'm not too scared anymore.
The only thing that really sucks ass is doing all that nursing paperwork.
Enough geek talk.
I'm just so glad I don't have any school-related obligations to do tonight and tomorrow. I feel like watching a movie or maybe just spend time listening to music.
I just feel so relieved. It's fucking awesome.
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12 JUNE 2008
Umm. In response to one of the comments, I do not/did not used to experiment, although I did have thoughts about it. I said that I realized it just was not my thing. I don't like doing things that make me feel uncomfortable.
Anyway, I feel kinda bummed about not being in the same class as Carl. I'm just not used to not having him around all the time. I feel really sad about that right now. But atleast we always try and find time for each other. It just sucks ass.
Sucks ass big time.
It just feels like I've never been this emotionally attatched to anyone. Even the thought of walking into different classrooms and having different school hours just bums me out. Carl feels the same about everything as well. It just sucks ass.
I guess I should look at the brighter side. Atleast I'll still get to see him. Only eighteen weeks left till semester break. Hahaha. I'm gonna miss him everyday.
The cheese, Mika. It's contageous!
Anyways. About the facing my fears thing. I don't think I'll be able to get another piercing or tattoo because the thought of needles jabbing into my skin just freaks the fuck out of me and I just can't handle the thought of it. My heart rate goes kahh-ray-zehh! It's fucking nuts.
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07 JUNE 2008
I finally have the time to catch up on watching the L Word and I'm on season 3 already. It's almost been a year since I last watched it, thanks to Mika, who pretty much convinced me that I was missing out on so much. They're upto their sixth season and I am so left behind. I am such a loser. Gotta go get seasons four to six soon.
The L Word isn't just about the nudity and the girl on girl action. There's just something about these women that are so, kick ass? Like their way of life and stuff. I don't know what other adjective to use but it's a really awesome show.
I've never really been confused about my sexual orientation. I've always been straight. I did have thoughts about experimenting but realized that it just wasn't my thing. Hehe. I do check girls out and stuff but I don't develop feelings for them or anything. I have absolutely nothing against same sex relationships. As long as you like being around each other, it's all gravy baby! Love is all that matters.
Ew I can't believe I just said that.
School starts in a few days! So not excited but atleast I'll get to hang out with Carl and stuff. Three days (Monday-Wednesday) off a week for a while would be a really good chance to spend lots of time together before duty at the hospital starts. I am so scared shitless!
Have you ever wanted to do something so bad but fear gets in the way? Like, getting a piercing or a tattoo or something? *Sigh* I wish I wasn't that chicken. Haha.
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04 JUNE 2008
I have this horrible cough which pretty much denies me the right to a peaceful, good night's sleep. Eurgh. The phlegm.
I was watching Gossip Girl last night and it was that episode where Nate found out about Blair and Chuck, and he broke up with Blair and acted as if he didn't do anything as wrong as what Blair did. I just don't get how Nate could cheat on Blair with her best friend and develop feelings for the best friend, then take Blair for granted along the way. Then they break up and Blair finds comfort in Chuck and they sleep together and Nate finds out after things between him and Blair get better and he acts as if he hasn't done anything so wrong in the past. Like, with Blair doing all the forgiving, and Nate keeping secrets from her and taking her for granted, he throws it all away just like that? Gosh. Double standard much?
That episode reminded me so much of what happened to me earlier this year. Remember how I used to go out with my ex and developed feelings for Carl? Well, my ex, Carl, and I have this mutual friend (let's call that friend the mutual friend) whom we all are so very close to (my ex and Carl aren't friends though). Anyways, I went through so much crap figuring out who I really wanted to be with, and when I finally came up with the decision of being with Carl instead of my ex, the mutual friend pretty much freaked and didn't talk to me and Carl for about two months or so.
The same thing happened to my close friend (let's call that friend the close friend) and her boyfriend. They broke up for the same reason except that it was the other way around. Her boyfriend kind of developed feelings for another girl, so they had to end it. The mutual friend and the close friend are good friends as well, and when they were talking about the break up, I heard the mutual friend say; "aww, it's okay. Don't worry I won't take sides".
Like, wtf man? If it's us girls who, in some people's perspective, do what is wrong, it's unacceptable. But if it's the boys who do it, it's alright. Why do things have to be like that?
I mean, things are okay now, like, with me and Carl and the mutual friend. Things like that just make me think. It used to bother me that a lot of people were against me when I made my decision, those people used to be my friends. I mean, we're all friends again but what I've been through was so shit and it wasn't easy. I still don't get how it was all MY fault when I really didn't do anything wrong directly to them that caused them to react like that. I just did what made (and still makes) me and Carl happy. I know I've caused my ex so much pain but what can I do about that? It's Carl I wanna be with. But I'm leaving all that behind and what's important now is that things are going really good.
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31 MAY 2008
Warning: CHEESE.
The sweetest thing someone's ever done for me is to travel an hour by bus at six in the morning on a Saturday just to get here at seven thirty, to wait for me to wake up at around nine forty just to surprise me with three red roses and see me for five minutes.
I miss Carl already. I wish he didn't live that far away.
Anyways, I got bitten by an ant when I was at Laguna and my toe is swollen and it looks like I'm gonna have to get it amputated. Okay, I was just kidding, but it looks so scary and it's itchy as heck.
School starts in ten days. I am so not looking forward to it. Third year's gonna be tres hectic. I'm gonna have to say goodbye to my social life again once more.
Life at home is lonely. Something seems to shit my parents. I don't know what. But we all know that my dad's got this temper-controlling problem where he snaps out at me for the little things. I hate that. I wish I could drive so I could take the car out and not get bored at home but gas would be a problem. I'm broke az plus I don't really have the guts to drive out there in the Philippine streets where jeepney drivers show no mercy for beginners. If only dad kept his temper down every time he taught me how to drive, I wouldn't ask him to drive me places. Blegh. Whatever.
I just don't feel like staying at home right now. I just wanna hang out with Carl and our friends.
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28 MAY 2008
Told you I'd make up for everything. New layout :) It was Carl's idea to make a colorful layout, et voila. Ainnit funnnnkkehh?
I'll be heading off to this place called Laguna tomorrow, which is a two hour (or so) drive away from Manila. I've been there a bunch of times with my friends and we'll be going there again. Sadly enough, I won't be able to stay overnight, as my mother had laid out specific terms and conditions eversince I told her about Carl. Yikos. Eight Simple Rules much? But that's okay, atleast I'll get to go.
Can't wait to go swimming :) Carl owes me a race around the pool.
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THE AICHEE
AICHEE. 20 year young Filipino girl living somewhere downtown Manila. 3rd year Nursing student at Manila Doctor's College. Owns a Samsung SGH-X830, a Zen Vision:M, and a pink Care Bear backpack named Sparkles. Has the hots for Hayley Williams, Chris Brown and Patrick Stump. But Carlo is the only person who owns her heart. Finds Soulja Boy, T-pain, and Eminem really annoying. Loves MTV (except when some stupid ass rap video comes on), Hershey's, Krispy Kreme, and Skittles. Likes watching funny movies and series that are actually entertaining like Napoleon Dynamite, Family Guy, South Park, and Drawn Together. Says "yuck", "stupid", "doofus" and "kay" a lot. Almost always has a smile on face.
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